Going into my senior year of high school I was excited for all the activities most seniors go through prom, graduation, graduation parties, class trip and just being free. September rolls around and school begins it started off as just another year. Bells rings students switch classes and all the drama to go around. Then all of a sudden in late October I knew something wasn’t right. I just didn’t feel like myself. So I figured I’m going to take a pregnancy test thinking it was going to come back negative but it was worth a shot to take one.
I took a pregnancy test the next morning and didn’t even look at it till I got to school because I was in such denial. Of course I left the result paper telling you what all the different lines meant at home. I went to the school nurse to see if she could do anything to help me but there was nothing she could do. I began to just watch the clocked and it finally hit 1:57 pm. I got into my car and drove home, as soon as I got home I threw my car into park and ran into the house to find the result paper.
I read the result paper and felt like I was just hit but a ton of bricks and I knew my life was about to change in a blink of an eye. The test result was positive and I was pregnant. My immediate reaction was how am I going to tell my mom that her 17 year old daughter “her baby” that I was pregnant and that she was going to be a grandmother.
I can recall the whole conversation I had with my mom when I told her I was pregnant. She was laying on her bed reading a book so I went and laid beside her and said “mom, we need to talk”. I began to smile and laugh a little bit because I was so nervous I just came out and said it “mom I’m pregnant”. She just looked at me and laughed and called me a liar and I just looked at her and said “no mom I’m not joking”. She still didn’t believe me so I went out to my car and got the test and the results and handed both items to her and I said “look”. She didn’t say a single word to me it felt like years but in reality it was a couple of seconds.
As the year slowly went by more and more people began to find out I was pregnant. It also seemed like a lot of people I never really talked to wanted to be my friend. The bigger my belly grew the more people would walked up to me and just touched my stomach. I always put a smile on my face when it was happening but it reality it drove me nuts. I just went one with my life trying to act like a normal student, sometimes believe it or not I would even forget I was pregnant till I looked down and saw my belly.
As all the girls were beginning to shop for prom dresses I sat back and thought how am I going to find a prom dress that fits a pregnant teen? I found a dress but it had to have lots of custom fittings due to my belly. I was just trying to be a normal senior girl that’s all I really wanted. I still went to prom we went on a cruise of Boston the boats name was call “The Odyssey”. Prom was amazing and went smoothly. I recall the most frustrating part of prom was everyone coming up to me and asking me “Becky, what happens if you go into labor in the middle of the ocean?” I just had to reassuring myself and my classmates I wasn’t due till July and that I still had 2 months left.
Even being 7 months pregnant I still went to our senior trip to six flags. Even though I couldn’t go on any of the rides I still wanted to feel part of the class. i just sat by the pool all day and relaxed and actually some of my class mates sat with me. I had such a good time other than the fact I came home and I was as red as a lobster. I remember trying to sleep that night was very interesting I was so burnt It would hurt to move.
As my senior year began to whine down we were now preparing for our graduation. Another problem I got to face was trying to find a gown that could fit my now almost 8 month pregnant belly. I had to get a triple XL just so it would go over my stomach. I did everything I could to put a smile on my face but I was terrified because graduation was here and that just meant my due date was that much closer. Luckily, I made it through graduation almost perfect till I was the only one to trip while receiving my diploma. I can still hear my super intend ant telling me he would never let me fall and would be right there to catch me. I had never felt so embarrassed in my life but I had that piece of paper in my hand saying I was a part of the graduating class of 2006. As we began to depart from the auditorium I knew my life was truly just about to begin. At the age of 18, on July 10th 2006 I gave birth to my son Andrew Joseph Tucker who was 10lbs 8ozs and 22 ½ inches long.
Now at the age of 3 he is your typical hyper, crazy, funny and loving little boy. He has taught me so much in the last 3 years. He has taught me patience and how to love. To be honest without him I don’t know where I’d be in life. I thank him every day morning when I wake up and get ready for school, because I’m trying to give him the life that I was never able to have.
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I think that this essay tells u how bad things can also have positive out comes. If you want my opinon it was a little to descriptive, especially the words pregnant belly, I don't know why but I don't like that word.
ReplyDeleteBecky I really liked your essay a lot, especially the part about where you wrote about how you were feeling in high school while you were pregnant. Since we have to make a suggestion for the homework assignment, if I were to pick one area where you could maybe add more detail, if you wanted, would be on your graduation day. You said you knew that your life was about to begin but I was wondering if you could elaborate on that...were you feeling excited about it or anxious, or both? I think some universal themes in your essay would be acceptance, a mother's love for her child and perseverance. You persevered and graduated high school and while you wished you could have "fit in" more with your peers, rather than stay home you still remained among them, even going 7 months pregnant to Six Flags. You loved your child enough to want to give him a better life than you had and that is very unselfish which is how all parents should love their children. The most successful aspect of your essay is again, the part where you write about telling your mom about being pregnant. It almost makes the reader feel like they're in the room alongside you while you tell her. I think in the 3rd paragraph, first line you typed "buy a ton of bricks" and I think you meant by a ton of bricks but other than that, like I said before I really enjoyed reading your rough draft and I think you wrote exactly what the teacher was looking for in the assignment.
ReplyDeleteI agree that this is a great start, and you do a good job at portraying your state of mind and admirable courage/maturity level/determination to have the senior year you deserved. Because you do take on such a long time span, it does make it hard to develop extended scenes (I do agree the one telling yr mother is well done). The conclusion does a nice job of bringing us up to the present, though it does introduce some new ideas (particularly this idea of giving Andrew the sort of life you haven't had, which doesn't seem prepared for earlier in essay). In revision, I'd suggest thinking about focus (what's the main thing you want to communicate about the experience of a pregnant senior year--I can guess how the birth and motherhood changed you, but how did the pregnancy? or what did you learn in going through that nine months?) Then see if you can make more particular some scenes that show those changes/realizations that came.
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