Thursday, September 24, 2009

"Senior Year" Rough Draft

Going into my senior year of high school I was excited for all the activities most seniors go through prom, graduation, graduation parties, class trip and just being free. September rolls around and school begins it started off as just another year. Bells rings students switch classes and all the drama to go around. Then all of a sudden in late October I knew something wasn’t right. I just didn’t feel like myself. So I figured I’m going to take a pregnancy test thinking it was going to come back negative but it was worth a shot to take one.
I took a pregnancy test the next morning and didn’t even look at it till I got to school because I was in such denial. Of course I left the result paper telling you what all the different lines meant at home. I went to the school nurse to see if she could do anything to help me but there was nothing she could do. I began to just watch the clocked and it finally hit 1:57 pm. I got into my car and drove home, as soon as I got home I threw my car into park and ran into the house to find the result paper.
I read the result paper and felt like I was just hit but a ton of bricks and I knew my life was about to change in a blink of an eye. The test result was positive and I was pregnant. My immediate reaction was how am I going to tell my mom that her 17 year old daughter “her baby” that I was pregnant and that she was going to be a grandmother.
I can recall the whole conversation I had with my mom when I told her I was pregnant. She was laying on her bed reading a book so I went and laid beside her and said “mom, we need to talk”. I began to smile and laugh a little bit because I was so nervous I just came out and said it “mom I’m pregnant”. She just looked at me and laughed and called me a liar and I just looked at her and said “no mom I’m not joking”. She still didn’t believe me so I went out to my car and got the test and the results and handed both items to her and I said “look”. She didn’t say a single word to me it felt like years but in reality it was a couple of seconds.
As the year slowly went by more and more people began to find out I was pregnant. It also seemed like a lot of people I never really talked to wanted to be my friend. The bigger my belly grew the more people would walked up to me and just touched my stomach. I always put a smile on my face when it was happening but it reality it drove me nuts. I just went one with my life trying to act like a normal student, sometimes believe it or not I would even forget I was pregnant till I looked down and saw my belly.
As all the girls were beginning to shop for prom dresses I sat back and thought how am I going to find a prom dress that fits a pregnant teen? I found a dress but it had to have lots of custom fittings due to my belly. I was just trying to be a normal senior girl that’s all I really wanted. I still went to prom we went on a cruise of Boston the boats name was call “The Odyssey”. Prom was amazing and went smoothly. I recall the most frustrating part of prom was everyone coming up to me and asking me “Becky, what happens if you go into labor in the middle of the ocean?” I just had to reassuring myself and my classmates I wasn’t due till July and that I still had 2 months left.
Even being 7 months pregnant I still went to our senior trip to six flags. Even though I couldn’t go on any of the rides I still wanted to feel part of the class. i just sat by the pool all day and relaxed and actually some of my class mates sat with me. I had such a good time other than the fact I came home and I was as red as a lobster. I remember trying to sleep that night was very interesting I was so burnt It would hurt to move.
As my senior year began to whine down we were now preparing for our graduation. Another problem I got to face was trying to find a gown that could fit my now almost 8 month pregnant belly. I had to get a triple XL just so it would go over my stomach. I did everything I could to put a smile on my face but I was terrified because graduation was here and that just meant my due date was that much closer. Luckily, I made it through graduation almost perfect till I was the only one to trip while receiving my diploma. I can still hear my super intend ant telling me he would never let me fall and would be right there to catch me. I had never felt so embarrassed in my life but I had that piece of paper in my hand saying I was a part of the graduating class of 2006. As we began to depart from the auditorium I knew my life was truly just about to begin. At the age of 18, on July 10th 2006 I gave birth to my son Andrew Joseph Tucker who was 10lbs 8ozs and 22 ½ inches long.
Now at the age of 3 he is your typical hyper, crazy, funny and loving little boy. He has taught me so much in the last 3 years. He has taught me patience and how to love. To be honest without him I don’t know where I’d be in life. I thank him every day morning when I wake up and get ready for school, because I’m trying to give him the life that I was never able to have.




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Monday, September 21, 2009

First Blogging Experience

So I decided to do my personal essay on a very simple subject for me, My amazing 3 year old son name Andrew. I have had many different experience with him in the last 3 years, So I Figured I would have alot to write. I'm really excited to be able to write a whole essay on him. Hopefully when he gets older he will appreciate the essay. The reason why I'm tryen so hard in school is to be able to give him the life I wasn't able to have.